i don't

i don’t, i really don’t, I very much
don’t want to be so soft, so open

so much soft to need you. I don’t
want to need you so much it makes me
and unmakes me so very much soft

so open like a sky or a bucket with a big lip
or maybe even a house with no windows
and all the doors are left open, that kind of open, I don’t
want to be so open like that or soft, soft like a kite is soft to the trees

but not like a kite is to wind, I don’t really don’t so much don’t
want to be soft like grass is to ten thousand feet, soft like a man is to
something he loves, soft like a woman is to someone she loves

I don’t want to be soft for you, or open for you. I so much don’t want to
that I’m going to be very hard and closed, or maybe just hard and kind
of open

maybe just closed but a little not hard, just a small bit not hard that water
can sink in, like ground, but not like roads, not like gutters, but like rivers

because rivers are closed but a little not hard
and I don’t, really don’t want you that much at all.